[2022/09/05] a day of procrastination

Today I woke up knowing that I had a ton of stuff to do, but I invented so many other things on my checklist to finish0 before getting into actual work. If I have to name a few, they would be waking up late, hanging out with KF, eating Korean bbq chicken at DN’s house, and meeting TN’s boyfriend from UNC. We had a whale of a time – just hanging out and talking about all kinds of jazzy things on earth.

When it came to work time, I was strangely productive. Maybe the mentality that I don’t have much time left and I still had a mountain of work waiting was so terrifying that it drove me to be more motivated and efficient.

I don’t have many thoughts today, just that KF is starting work tomorrow and we both know that our relationship will be so different when this change happens. I am afraid of only a few things, but one of them is that I won’t be able to make time for messages and calls with KF. I am never good at chatting over the phone and even worse at keeping my life up to date with everyone. Even my parents complain that I didn’t call them often enough. Should I start using Snapchat so I don’t miss out? It’s the most common way for people to stay in touch nowadays. KF started getting on it again – keeping streaks and talking to his friends. I don’t know, sometimes it’s so overwhelming and exhausting just to think about, but I can’t just choose to miss out things everytime either!

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